Hais, as expected, this is a sad entry again. Have asked him for a time out. Hais, im really very very sad, didnt want anything to turn out this way and i have never expected to be labelled a bitch of slut by him. Tell me, is there any wrong if i asked him to hurry come over to my house? I asked him to hurry come over to my house and all i got from him was saying that i was SELFISH, CHILDISH, IRRITATING and NOISY. I know he has got his friends, but i`ve told him a million times, I AM A GIRL THAT NEEDS ALOT OF TIME FROM MY BOYFRIEND, and explained to him why i wanna meet him so much now, its because i wanna concentrate on my exams this year and not fool around like the previous years.

The tone he speaks to me has also changed, always scolding me lots of vulgaraties, and i would always feel that pinch in my heart. I called crush and siewhwee and just burst into tears, asking them what to do. I really cannot take this any longer. Break up is the fastest way to end all this, but i dont want to and im not planning to. Im not gonna let our 11months plus relationship end in just 1 second, with just one word and also, there is too much memories that hold me back and i dont want to break up with him mainly for just one fact that i still truly love him. Thou i may tell him that i hate him and i dont want him anymore, but deep down, its totally a different matter.

I asked him for a time out, so that we both can cool down and sort our feelings out. I know this is gonna be a damn difficult time for me, and i hope that his feelings wouldnt fade for me due to this time out. Hais...

Marcus <3,
I just wanna let you know that i really still love you and in my heart, you`ll always be my hubby, the boy i love most. Hais,I dont understand why you always have to say that im a flirt when the true fact is i have never even flirt with any other guy except for you. Since the day i fell in love with you, i really hoped to spend my whole lifetime with you. You may think im joking, but i really am not. I know you`ve got your own friends and need to spend time with them too, i am trying very hard to not ask you to meet me so much, but i really cant. I enjoy being with you and i really cant bear to leave your side whenever you had to go home. The reason that i cant accept the way you scold me is because i cant accept the fact that you cant change that habit just for me. I thought i was that important in your heart, arent i? I really miss the times when you were always msg-ing me and calling me, telling me not to leave you, and always dreaming of me going off with other guys, and waking up crying because you thought i have left you for another guy. I really am very very touched whenever i hear all this from you. THAT period of time was the time that i felt most loved by you. Hais, i hope this 1 week time out for us, you would take good care of yourself, eat all your meals, and sleep early, you always complain lack of sleep, and i dont want you to fall sick. You want your freedom, and i`ve given you 1 week of it, i hope when the time is up, you would still by my hubby and i`ll still be your cute little ant and wife. I didnt want this time out to torture you or get back at you, i hope you understand. Hais, love you lots my baby <3 In my heart, we`ll never be apart. Sing Hei Se Mao Yi for me again?

每一封簡訊傳出的思念 都對你說
Sarang Hae Yo means I Love You,
Sarang Hae Yo 只對你說
I will love you, and forever more
我答應, baby you will see
每一個我都屬於你

Love you lots my boy! <3

Hais..( :: '-' :: )